"知人知面不知心"
today is a really moody day..
seriously i feel like gorging ALOT OF FOOD
until my stomach burst
but cant..
went to the freaking bus interchange
with a super black face
i think thats y my sis din dare to talk to me...
she scared i hantum her or sth
which is sth i WILL NOT do...
well y was i moody?
partly is because my mom kind of piss me off
before i went out of the hse...
and the other half was very complicated
DOUBTS
QUESTIONS
EVERYTHING
in the past present just suddenly bombard into my head
i have no idea y was i like this?
i was woken up due to many QUESTION MARKS...
i woke up like at 4 plus...
and cant get to slp...
thats y throughout the whole day i was super moody
cause its like all these 'events'
are those that i kind of thrown it right at the bottom of my brain
or back of the head..
sub-consciously i'd forgotten bout everything.
NOW ITS ALL COMING BACK TO ME....
be it now or the past..
it just seemed sooo freaking much..
i cant even think of a solution to settle it..
i tot it will be solved after much rantings that day with my qin ai de
but apparently
after talking
it caused more doubts to surface
more loopholes...
maybe i was just thinking too much...
i dun wan history to repeat itself...
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE....
BUT IT IS SERIOUSLY DRIVING ME CRAZY
AND I DUN WANNA TALK BOUT IT!!!!
my only way of venting has been restricted
so no choice...
SIGH...a big one..
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